AT THE END OF THE SEA...

What would be at the end of this sea??? I don't know dear......
Who knows?  I'm such mad to say....nothing ...nothing ...
Oh! God ...Give   a look to my angry bird....a caring  look..
I think you know my heart...as clear as clean water....

I  beg you as if a... beggar crying... for food..
A beggar... and loser...I know...I know....
Take care...take care....Oh! god help me to unscrew....
I can't help crying ....I learn to cry in my heart...so much 

My heart whispers ...I can hear the whisperings from my heart and brain
Dear I'm here ... I'm here....open your heart.....open to me...
But my heart.. as.. heavy as.. a huge stone...tell me how to forgive..
how to forgive... be kind to all...be kind to all....till my death....death..

How .to cry in my heart without shedding a single drop...the magic of life...
Only those experienced... can ...express...and enjoy....
All that drops were pooling in the whole blood ...every drop of....
I'm going to dry it out to make solid heavy stone....and going to keep in my heart...

Some Hot Icy murmuring

Some Hot Icy murmuring

I'm going to be mad ...and arrogant   ....I say....
I felt a lot....a lot from all around me......nothing to change....nothing..
I don't help that..but  don't help crying... and not thinking about your feelings..
Whether it is hot or not ....or as cool as an icy land.

Any how I can't control myself...can't suffer a lot...
Why all those are against me...Because of that dedication 
That mad and vigorous dedi....cation...
I can't help stopping that mad and crazy thing....

I feels a lot......from the separation of my beloved and belongings
when think of that.. I felt like felling in to that black hole again...
Take care...take care my dear...I'm pouring all my feeling to you...
You swallow it or not ..I don't know....

When I enters this negative atmosphere....peep to feelings..
I again enters into the burnus of glowing charcoal.....
I can't cry...I can't cry...even if my heart and eyes filled tears of blood..
I can't escape from that hot rays........burns my skin and face...

My heart broken...broken into deadly madly  pieces ...
How can I open my heart to pour....that icy things... 
when my  tears mixed with blood, I became as cool as Antarctica....
What my ice cooled dreams say to my smiling fishes...

Oh! god  help me get out of this burning charcoal....
I don't try to screw you up...and don't have straight to do anything...
I know ...I can't do anything..and  as coward as a big fool..
Any way I'm not going to hate them...but love ..only.. love...

I'll try as much I can...what others think I don't know...
A big fool mugging everything?????suffering every teasing comments...
Right ya...But one thing is true and universe..
All are very cruel to me...and I'm very unfit for them..

Sorry.. say.. you as a coward ...yes I said.....sorry to say...
How can I pour my feelings ????
How can I express my feelings and attitude???
Anyhow my attitude not as positive now...

I'm trying to be more positive towards life and all..
I'm trying to unscrew me.....I keep the balance.... 
Take care...take care..........take care.......
I'm here waiting for you ...till my last breathe....