Some Hot Icy murmuring

Some Hot Icy murmuring

I'm going to be mad ...and arrogant   ....I say....
I felt a lot....a lot from all around me......nothing to change....nothing..
I don't help that..but  don't help crying... and not thinking about your feelings..
Whether it is hot or not ....or as cool as an icy land.

Any how I can't control myself...can't suffer a lot...
Why all those are against me...Because of that dedication 
That mad and vigorous dedi....cation...
I can't help stopping that mad and crazy thing....

I feels a lot......from the separation of my beloved and belongings
when think of that.. I felt like felling in to that black hole again...
Take care...take care my dear...I'm pouring all my feeling to you...
You swallow it or not ..I don't know....

When I enters this negative atmosphere....peep to feelings..
I again enters into the burnus of glowing charcoal.....
I can't cry...I can't cry...even if my heart and eyes filled tears of blood..
I can't escape from that hot rays........burns my skin and face...

My heart broken...broken into deadly madly  pieces ...
How can I open my heart to pour....that icy things... 
when my  tears mixed with blood, I became as cool as Antarctica....
What my ice cooled dreams say to my smiling fishes...

Oh! god  help me get out of this burning charcoal....
I don't try to screw you up...and don't have straight to do anything...
I know ...I can't do anything..and  as coward as a big fool..
Any way I'm not going to hate them...but love ..only.. love...

I'll try as much I can...what others think I don't know...
A big fool mugging everything?????suffering every teasing comments...
Right ya...But one thing is true and universe..
All are very cruel to me...and I'm very unfit for them..

Sorry.. say.. you as a coward ...yes I said.....sorry to say...
How can I pour my feelings ????
How can I express my feelings and attitude???
Anyhow my attitude not as positive now...

I'm trying to be more positive towards life and all..
I'm trying to unscrew me.....I keep the balance.... 
Take care...take care..........take care.......
I'm here waiting for you ...till my last breathe....