Transparency Preloaded....

Union of two transparent trees.....

 

Union of two Transparent trees

Sun the reality....it's shadow our fugitive running dreams...

Our dreams ,the shadow more fulgent ,beautiful  than the reality..

But it is partially or sometimes fully covered by the shadow of sorrowful thoughts..

I don't know.. how to distinguish between real things and dreams..

Lively clear stream is flowing and I'm enjoying happily...

But transparency........

Coming and covering... like dark deep clouds....

When watching so closely..I can see that beautiful ...

transparent charming life..... on the stream of real life..

Oh! what is reality??? what is dreams???/

Look....How the transparent trees unite...mingled together...

To form a compatible... complaisant.. ballet of life...

colourful tears......

colour and tears......

When tears melts and merge......with blood....

When I saw the... tears .......I melts...merge ...
I know it adversely affect the whole system......
But I wish ...................I had no choice........
 Oh God! give me... some space... to live.....

What's she thinking about me? Does she believe in the wrong way
I'm alone ...and worried ....in this wicked world...
All are saying...it is my faults....Why am I?
Oh God! What are my faults? tell me ....I   bow you ...

It comes abruptly towards me , the words she said
Still it is haunting me ..like wild tigers ...and chip  me...
What will she say to others or write to the world...
Why am I supporting a lot for these...........

Why am I here to give sorrow to all.....
What are my faults?  ....I don’t know......
Oh God! let me know.....let me lead....I appeal...
I wish to hail the snow of that dark world...

I can't hear you anything....let me hear....
your voice....the voice of love...Oh God!
Do I deserve it? ....I don't know.....
I heed your voice.....and I'm always indissoluble with you..

I'm merely shattered and blown into tiny pieces..
Why all are behaving....distorting things to me....
I can't face the troubles .....any troubles arise from...
I can't bear the hot rays of anger.....

Help me...help me....I'm drowning....
I don't know how to dive....or breathe in this dirty words...
I don’t know to be hypocritical and pretend to be a friend...
I don't know how to face these troubles ..Oh God ! give me that courage..

How can I get rid of this? ...purely ,powerfully false conclusion...
Oh God! How can I come out from here.....
Help me ...help me...I'm totally exquisite..
They think .....I'm.......How can I suffer? How can I exhaust?....

How can I... in tune.. with... a smiling face?.....
I'm going to fast...and torture my mind and body...
Can I rigging something ...from ...someone....
I need not hailing for the snow and I'm potentially able...I know...

I know the god himself bestowed upon me...
I wish to be bold.. holding my values diligently..
But always eerie.. inspite of ...this glinting of god..
Why do I fear this type of grotesque people?

I wish to hasten ..everything..and need the lure of god..
Be merry...do not feel outwit....and preen your mind with god's love..
Scamper to your  duty...and saunter your thought with love..
And you can lure...you can lure... and feel the aroma of love.....

AT THE END OF THE SEA...

What would be at the end of this sea??? I don't know dear......
Who knows?  I'm such mad to say....nothing ...nothing ...
Oh! God ...Give   a look to my angry bird....a caring  look..
I think you know my heart...as clear as clean water....

I  beg you as if a... beggar crying... for food..
A beggar... and loser...I know...I know....
Take care...take care....Oh! god help me to unscrew....
I can't help crying ....I learn to cry in my heart...so much 

My heart whispers ...I can hear the whisperings from my heart and brain
Dear I'm here ... I'm here....open your heart.....open to me...
But my heart.. as.. heavy as.. a huge stone...tell me how to forgive..
how to forgive... be kind to all...be kind to all....till my death....death..

How .to cry in my heart without shedding a single drop...the magic of life...
Only those experienced... can ...express...and enjoy....
All that drops were pooling in the whole blood ...every drop of....
I'm going to dry it out to make solid heavy stone....and going to keep in my heart...

Some Hot Icy murmuring

Some Hot Icy murmuring

I'm going to be mad ...and arrogant   ....I say....
I felt a lot....a lot from all around me......nothing to change....nothing..
I don't help that..but  don't help crying... and not thinking about your feelings..
Whether it is hot or not ....or as cool as an icy land.

Any how I can't control myself...can't suffer a lot...
Why all those are against me...Because of that dedication 
That mad and vigorous dedi....cation...
I can't help stopping that mad and crazy thing....

I feels a lot......from the separation of my beloved and belongings
when think of that.. I felt like felling in to that black hole again...
Take care...take care my dear...I'm pouring all my feeling to you...
You swallow it or not ..I don't know....

When I enters this negative atmosphere....peep to feelings..
I again enters into the burnus of glowing charcoal.....
I can't cry...I can't cry...even if my heart and eyes filled tears of blood..
I can't escape from that hot rays........burns my skin and face...

My heart broken...broken into deadly madly  pieces ...
How can I open my heart to pour....that icy things... 
when my  tears mixed with blood, I became as cool as Antarctica....
What my ice cooled dreams say to my smiling fishes...

Oh! god  help me get out of this burning charcoal....
I don't try to screw you up...and don't have straight to do anything...
I know ...I can't do anything..and  as coward as a big fool..
Any way I'm not going to hate them...but love ..only.. love...

I'll try as much I can...what others think I don't know...
A big fool mugging everything?????suffering every teasing comments...
Right ya...But one thing is true and universe..
All are very cruel to me...and I'm very unfit for them..

Sorry.. say.. you as a coward ...yes I said.....sorry to say...
How can I pour my feelings ????
How can I express my feelings and attitude???
Anyhow my attitude not as positive now...

I'm trying to be more positive towards life and all..
I'm trying to unscrew me.....I keep the balance.... 
Take care...take care..........take care.......
I'm here waiting for you ...till my last breathe....

When I met her.........

I met her ............I met her.......
I looked at her face for a long time....through her eyes......
Paled face ...but sparkling eyes..I'm a bit relieved...
When I touch her....I felt cool ....but gradually turned hot..the feel of love...

Prayer...prayer ...Prayer everywhere dear......
God is great......love is great........he knows everything...
Keep your children close your heart......dear...
You know I always see you in my dreams...even in green daylight...

When I met her.....my beautiful, smart ,young chat...
My heart broken....but I taught my heart to  cover the ashes to fly..
Even though sometimes I failed....
when I looked deep into your eyes...you drag  me to somewhere in heaven..

Why do this crab select my sweet heart to crawl?........
Go go go away from her..........let her live in this loving world....
When I say bye , I saw fear..no ...What could I say....
An undefinable feelings in her eyes........climbing her steps up.....

"ON THE FENCE: Chipko Movement Re-visited"

A Documentary on Narmada Bachao Andolan

my drawing...........................

my third venture in success???????????????????????????..........

drawing section turned a new look......................

my third revenge is still working......